WEBVTT 00:00:32.950 --> 00:00:34.486 Human touch. 00:00:36.119 --> 00:00:38.657 Our first form of communication. 00:00:39.164 --> 00:00:41.702 Safety, security, comfort, 00:00:41.792 --> 00:00:44.705 all in the gentle caress of a finger. 00:00:45.045 --> 00:00:47.537 Or the brush of lips on a soft cheek. 00:00:48.757 --> 00:00:50.464 It connects us when we're happy... 00:00:52.302 --> 00:00:55.261 bolsters us in times of fear... 00:00:57.099 --> 00:00:59.011 excites us in times of passion... 00:01:01.853 --> 00:01:02.969 and love. 00:01:04.648 --> 00:01:09.734 We need that touch from the one we love almost as much as we need air to breathe. 00:01:11.280 --> 00:01:14.614 But I never understood the importance of touch, 00:01:15.784 --> 00:01:17.150 his touch... 00:01:20.539 --> 00:01:22.280 until I couldn't have it. 00:01:44.229 --> 00:01:45.936 Oh! 00:01:46.023 --> 00:01:47.434 - Oh, yeah. - Oh! 00:01:47.524 --> 00:01:49.231 Oh, yeah. This one's perfect. 00:01:51.403 --> 00:01:53.360 Actually, the tan lines might be incredible. 00:01:53.447 --> 00:01:56.064 Oh, my gosh. That doesn't even cover half your boob. 00:01:56.158 --> 00:01:58.491 No, you need something... 00:02:00.078 --> 00:02:02.223 - This is actually cute. - That's really cute. 00:02:02.247 --> 00:02:04.034 - Yeah. - Let me see. 00:02:04.124 --> 00:02:06.491 - I like that. - That's actually really pretty. 00:02:06.585 --> 00:02:08.326 But I can't tell, is it too trampy 00:02:08.420 --> 00:02:10.207 or not trampy enough? 00:02:10.297 --> 00:02:11.378 Hello! 00:02:12.090 --> 00:02:14.548 - Are you with us? - Okay, guess what. 00:02:14.760 --> 00:02:17.628 Taylor and Mason are meeting us at the airport in the morning. 00:02:17.929 --> 00:02:19.136 What's that face? 00:02:19.222 --> 00:02:20.633 - Oh, my God! - What? 00:02:20.724 --> 00:02:22.681 - I know. I know! - What? Wait. What? 00:02:22.768 --> 00:02:24.680 Dude, Mason and Brooke broke up. 00:02:24.770 --> 00:02:26.372 - No, they didn't. - Yes, they did. 00:02:26.396 --> 00:02:27.932 Oh, my God! Maya! 00:02:28.023 --> 00:02:30.015 - You're gonna do it! - Yep. 00:02:31.068 --> 00:02:33.025 I wish I could be there to see that in person. 00:02:35.572 --> 00:02:38.485 Just sucks that you planned it this year, and you don't even get to go. 00:02:40.118 --> 00:02:41.325 Well, 00:02:41.787 --> 00:02:45.326 you can just Photoshop me in with your fancy editing apps. 00:02:45.415 --> 00:02:47.532 - What are you talking about? - You know what. 00:02:47.626 --> 00:02:49.709 - I don't. - The one where you get your pimples 00:02:49.795 --> 00:02:51.377 and your little fake blush. 00:02:51.463 --> 00:02:53.329 - Shut up. - The lashes. 00:02:53.423 --> 00:02:55.623 - Your lashes aren't that long. - You guys are annoying. 00:02:55.676 --> 00:02:57.556 Okay, come on. Thank you for the burgers. 00:02:58.720 --> 00:03:01.337 Honestly, you guys are gonna have so much fun. 00:03:01.431 --> 00:03:02.592 - Okay? - Okay. 00:03:02.683 --> 00:03:04.925 - Bye. I love you. - I love you more. 00:03:05.018 --> 00:03:07.510 - I love you. - We'll miss you. Bye. 00:03:07.604 --> 00:03:09.311 Mwah. Use protection. 00:03:09.398 --> 00:03:11.139 Thanks, Mom. 00:03:56.570 --> 00:03:58.812 Hello, world! 00:03:58.905 --> 00:04:02.774 So, I am back in the hospital again for another tune-up. 00:04:02.868 --> 00:04:05.281 I need a few more rounds of antibiotics 00:04:05.370 --> 00:04:07.953 to get over this little sore throat that I've been... 00:04:08.039 --> 00:04:09.371 Hi, Barb! 00:04:09.458 --> 00:04:10.949 Sore throat? 00:04:11.042 --> 00:04:13.284 Right, with a 102 fever. 00:04:13.378 --> 00:04:16.291 - I've had worse. Say hi! - Stella, get that thing out of my face. 00:04:16.381 --> 00:04:18.088 - You're looking good! - I know that. 00:04:18.175 --> 00:04:21.168 Folks, Stella will be right back after we get her all set up. 00:04:21.261 --> 00:04:22.968 You heard the boss lady. 00:04:25.348 --> 00:04:27.260 I think this is her best work. 00:04:27.559 --> 00:04:30.848 Hi, Stella. 00:04:30.937 --> 00:04:32.098 Wow. 00:04:32.189 --> 00:04:34.602 Wow. A lot's changed in the last six months. 00:04:34.691 --> 00:04:36.978 Yep. He's due in March. 00:04:37.152 --> 00:04:38.484 Bend your arm, please. 00:04:38.570 --> 00:04:40.778 - What room's Poe in? - 310. 00:04:43.116 --> 00:04:45.358 And open up. 00:04:48.079 --> 00:04:49.195 All right. 00:04:53.585 --> 00:04:56.373 You are all set. I'll see you in a bit. 00:04:56.463 --> 00:04:57.704 Thank you, Julie. 00:05:00.592 --> 00:05:03.005 Wow. Are you sure this is okay? 00:05:03.094 --> 00:05:07.304 I will still be monitoring you. And, yes, it's okay. 00:05:07.390 --> 00:05:09.177 What would I do without you? 00:05:09.267 --> 00:05:11.054 You'd die. 00:05:12.521 --> 00:05:13.841 That's true. 00:05:13.897 --> 00:05:18.141 So, Barb is letting me keep my med cart in my room this time. 00:05:18.235 --> 00:05:21.945 And she left me a bunch of pills, some G-Juice. 00:05:22.197 --> 00:05:24.780 Yum! That's the liquid nutrition 00:05:24.866 --> 00:05:27.449 that goes straight to my stomach through my G-tube. 00:05:27.536 --> 00:05:29.698 So, to any of you girls out there 00:05:29.788 --> 00:05:33.407 wishing you could eat 5,000 calories a day and not gain a pound, 00:05:33.667 --> 00:05:35.158 I'll trade you any day. 00:05:36.127 --> 00:05:39.962 Today I'll probably be reorganizing this thing 00:05:40.048 --> 00:05:43.962 because as many of you know, I'm slightly anal. 00:05:44.219 --> 00:05:47.303 By slightly anal, I mean clinically OCD. 00:05:47.764 --> 00:05:49.505 So, peace. 00:05:49.599 --> 00:05:50.680 Bye, guys. 00:07:29.658 --> 00:07:31.365 New baby upstairs. 00:07:31.743 --> 00:07:33.450 Meet me in 15. 00:07:37.832 --> 00:07:40.449 - Hi, Cynthia. - Hi, Stella. 00:07:42.045 --> 00:07:43.126 Hi. 00:07:57.268 --> 00:08:00.206 I've clocked the nurse's schedule. Unless you put your ass on that call button, 00:08:00.230 --> 00:08:01.749 no one's gonna bother you for an hour. 00:08:01.773 --> 00:08:04.436 Hey. I gotta sleep on that bed, okay? 00:08:04.859 --> 00:08:06.771 Wow. I mean, we're not animals. 00:08:06.861 --> 00:08:08.648 Don't worry. It's not gonna take that long. 00:08:08.738 --> 00:08:10.821 Hey! Whatchu talkin' about, Willis? 00:09:10.675 --> 00:09:12.416 Saw you moving in your stuff. 00:09:13.011 --> 00:09:14.252 It was, uh... 00:09:14.471 --> 00:09:15.837 There was a lot of it. 00:09:16.473 --> 00:09:18.214 Are you gonna be here for a while? 00:09:20.602 --> 00:09:21.809 Hello? 00:09:24.856 --> 00:09:26.188 Oh. 00:09:27.400 --> 00:09:28.732 You're deaf. 00:09:29.402 --> 00:09:33.066 Shouldn't you be procuring your room for your guests? 00:09:33.323 --> 00:09:35.110 You rent by the hour or what? 00:09:35.658 --> 00:09:37.570 So, that was you lurking in the hall. 00:09:37.660 --> 00:09:40.243 Mmm, I don't lurk, and you followed me here. 00:09:40.330 --> 00:09:41.946 I wanted to introduce myself, 00:09:42.332 --> 00:09:44.790 but that little attitude of yours... 00:09:44.876 --> 00:09:47.710 Let me guess. You're the kind of guy that ignores the rules 00:09:47.796 --> 00:09:49.913 'cause it makes you feel in control. Am I right? 00:09:50.256 --> 00:09:51.463 You're not wrong. 00:09:51.549 --> 00:09:52.710 You think that's cute? 00:09:52.926 --> 00:09:54.337 Do you think it's cute? 00:09:55.845 --> 00:09:59.509 Letting your friends borrow your room for sex is disgusting, so, no. 00:09:59.599 --> 00:10:00.599 You don't like sex? 00:10:00.683 --> 00:10:02.174 No, I like... 00:10:03.311 --> 00:10:05.177 sex. I like sex. 00:10:06.314 --> 00:10:07.350 Sex is fine. 00:10:08.775 --> 00:10:12.439 "Fine" isn't a ringing endorsement, but I'll take some common ground where I can. 00:10:12.529 --> 00:10:15.021 - We have nothing in common. - Ooh, that's cold. 00:10:16.741 --> 00:10:18.778 What... What are you doing up here? 00:10:19.494 --> 00:10:22.407 Six feet at all times. You both know the rules. 00:10:22.497 --> 00:10:24.284 Will, get back to your room. 00:10:24.624 --> 00:10:25.910 There you go. 00:10:26.334 --> 00:10:29.168 A little name for your psychological profile. 00:10:29.921 --> 00:10:30.921 I'm Will Newman. 00:10:31.714 --> 00:10:32.921 And you are? 00:10:33.258 --> 00:10:34.374 Deaf. 00:10:34.801 --> 00:10:36.838 Stella, thank you for putting your mask on. 00:10:36.928 --> 00:10:38.214 Stella. 00:10:39.347 --> 00:10:40.804 You need to lighten up. 00:10:41.599 --> 00:10:42.760 It's just life. 00:10:43.309 --> 00:10:45.175 It'll be over before you know it. 00:10:52.485 --> 00:10:53.896 So, he's a CFer? 00:10:55.071 --> 00:10:57.108 - B. cepacia. - Mmm. 00:10:57.866 --> 00:11:00.700 Part of a new drug trial for Cevaflomalin. 00:11:02.245 --> 00:11:04.487 You contract that and you can... 00:11:05.123 --> 00:11:07.957 you can kiss the possibility of new lungs good-bye. 00:11:09.210 --> 00:11:12.044 There's no coming back from that bacteria. 00:11:12.714 --> 00:11:14.376 Stay away. 00:11:39.866 --> 00:11:41.528 Hello, world! 00:11:41.618 --> 00:11:45.328 Okay, AffloVest for 30 more minutes, then you're all set. 00:11:45.413 --> 00:11:47.325 You need anything else before I hit the road? 00:11:47.415 --> 00:11:49.372 Chocolate pudding for two? 00:11:49.459 --> 00:11:51.371 Oh, so, what? I'm room service now? 00:11:51.461 --> 00:11:53.748 Gotta take advantage of the perks. 00:11:57.967 --> 00:11:59.799 Good. 00:12:01.471 --> 00:12:03.383 Good girl, good girl. 00:12:03.723 --> 00:12:05.680 All right, good. Right. 00:12:06.267 --> 00:12:08.350 Right, sweetie. 00:12:08.436 --> 00:12:10.098 - I'll see you tomorrow. - Bye, Barb. 00:12:10.188 --> 00:12:11.520 Okay. 00:12:21.032 --> 00:12:24.241 Like all kids with cystic fibrosis, I was born terminal, 00:12:24.535 --> 00:12:28.245 which doesn't necessarily mean I'm gonna die tomorrow, 00:12:28.331 --> 00:12:29.538 but I could die tomorrow. 00:12:29.624 --> 00:12:30.831 Anyone could die tomorrow. 00:12:30.917 --> 00:12:33.455 I just have a little bit less time than everyone else. 00:12:33.544 --> 00:12:37.709 My lungs are at about 50% function right now. 00:12:37.799 --> 00:12:39.006 So at this rate, 00:12:39.092 --> 00:12:44.178 Dr. Hamid says that I'll need a transplant by the time I'm a junior in high school. 00:12:45.223 --> 00:12:47.180 That'll be fun. 00:12:47.850 --> 00:12:49.637 Hi, guys! Shh! 00:12:49.852 --> 00:12:51.559 We're at the NICU 00:12:51.646 --> 00:12:53.387 because I'm obsessed with babies. 00:12:53.481 --> 00:12:54.972 - And Barb... - Oh, no, no, no. 00:12:55.066 --> 00:12:59.436 The beautiful Barb is giving me permission to come in here by myself now. 00:12:59.529 --> 00:13:02.567 Cystic fibrosis, as you know, is a genetic disease 00:13:02.657 --> 00:13:05.741 that basically makes my body produce a shit ton of mucus. 00:13:05.827 --> 00:13:10.492 Fun fact, I have to be extremely careful around other people with CF. 00:13:10.581 --> 00:13:13.449 The rule is that we're not supposed to get within six feet 00:13:13.543 --> 00:13:16.160 because we could end up catching each other's bacteria. 00:13:16.504 --> 00:13:18.746 A lot of people don't realize that new lungs 00:13:18.840 --> 00:13:21.628 generally only last about five years, 00:13:21.718 --> 00:13:26.053 which is okay actually because most of us 00:13:26.139 --> 00:13:29.928 are just trying to stay alive long enough for a new treatment to come out. 00:13:30.018 --> 00:13:31.509 Hi, g uys! 00:13:31.602 --> 00:13:34.265 Just chilling here in my new AffloVest, 00:13:34.355 --> 00:13:38.190 which is really cool because now I don't have to be hooked up to the wall, 00:13:38.276 --> 00:13:41.565 which obviously I'm not because I'm hanging upside down on my bed. 00:13:42.739 --> 00:13:46.073 This is actually good for getting the mucus up and stuff. 00:13:46.159 --> 00:13:47.445 I know. Cute, right? 00:14:09.682 --> 00:14:10.798 Dang, girl. 00:14:11.309 --> 00:14:12.641 You look worn. 00:14:13.186 --> 00:14:14.393 Who is he? 00:14:14.687 --> 00:14:16.098 Is it anyone I know? 00:14:18.566 --> 00:14:20.148 What'd you get? 00:14:23.363 --> 00:14:26.856 What? Are those truffles? How'd you get truffles? 00:14:26.949 --> 00:14:29.612 - Oh, you gotta bring them with, sister. - Wow. 00:14:30.828 --> 00:14:33.821 Look at how spicy that food cart is. 00:14:34.040 --> 00:14:35.121 I'm impressed. 00:14:35.208 --> 00:14:36.790 All right, let's talk about me. 00:14:37.126 --> 00:14:39.118 I'm single! 00:14:40.213 --> 00:14:41.545 You broke up with Michael? 00:14:41.631 --> 00:14:43.213 Maybe he broke up with me. 00:14:43.925 --> 00:14:46.087 - Did he? - It was mutual. 00:14:47.303 --> 00:14:48.669 No, it wasn't. 00:14:48.763 --> 00:14:51.506 Why? You actually really liked him. 00:14:51.849 --> 00:14:53.841 And I thought he was gonna be the one. 00:14:54.268 --> 00:14:55.804 He obviously isn't. 00:14:58.272 --> 00:14:59.604 Screw him anyway, right? 00:14:59.857 --> 00:15:01.598 At least you got to do that. 00:15:04.362 --> 00:15:06.604 Poe? Poe? 00:15:06.948 --> 00:15:08.314 Poe? 00:15:11.077 --> 00:15:12.284 Poe? 00:15:12.787 --> 00:15:13.994 Poe, you okay? 00:15:15.581 --> 00:15:17.038 Choking, 310. 00:15:20.044 --> 00:15:21.751 I'm sorry, Julie. 00:15:21.838 --> 00:15:23.670 My leg hit the call button. 00:15:23.965 --> 00:15:25.297 You scared us, Poe. 00:15:25.883 --> 00:15:28.921 - Yeah, try chewing next time. - Okay. 00:15:29.637 --> 00:15:30.753 Here, Stella. 00:15:32.265 --> 00:15:34.473 Enjoy your truffles, asshole. 00:15:36.894 --> 00:15:38.681 And please be careful. 00:15:39.021 --> 00:15:40.808 I love you, Stella! 00:15:42.567 --> 00:15:45.560 Phase one clinical trials only started only 18 months ago, 00:15:45.653 --> 00:15:46.985 so we need to be patient 00:15:47.071 --> 00:15:49.404 and Will needs to help us with that. 00:15:49.490 --> 00:15:51.982 The risk of cross infection will be even higher now, so... 00:15:52.076 --> 00:15:54.910 Don't cough on any other CFers. 00:15:54.996 --> 00:15:59.832 Well, don't get close enough to touch them for their safety and yours. 00:16:00.209 --> 00:16:02.872 Six feet at all times. I got it. 00:16:05.214 --> 00:16:11.006 Will, in order for this to work, you need to keep up with your regimen. 00:16:15.516 --> 00:16:17.508 - Okay, I will see you soon. - All right. 00:16:46.380 --> 00:16:48.417 Hi! Oh, my gosh! 00:16:48.508 --> 00:16:49.874 You're wearing the bathing suit! 00:16:49.967 --> 00:16:51.754 Hi, Maya! 00:16:51.844 --> 00:16:52.925 Hi! 00:16:53.012 --> 00:16:56.176 Oh, I'm officially jealous. That looks so fun! 00:16:56.390 --> 00:16:58.390 - We miss you! - We miss you so much! 00:16:58.476 --> 00:17:01.810 - I miss you, too! - You have any cute boy visitors? 00:17:02.480 --> 00:17:04.346 No. No, he's not cute. 00:17:04.732 --> 00:17:06.064 What? 00:17:06.150 --> 00:17:07.311 Boy? 00:17:07.401 --> 00:17:09.267 What? 00:17:10.571 --> 00:17:12.437 - Show us! Show us! - Come on! 00:17:57.535 --> 00:18:00.118 What are you doing? Do you have a death wish or something? 00:18:01.038 --> 00:18:02.119 Hey! 00:18:02.415 --> 00:18:03.826 My lungs are toast, okay? 00:18:03.916 --> 00:18:08.286 Can you just let me enjoy this view while I can? 00:18:09.755 --> 00:18:11.963 Do you know how lucky you are to be here? 00:18:12.341 --> 00:18:14.708 To be a part of this drug trial? 00:18:15.970 --> 00:18:17.836 How do you know about my drug trial? 00:18:18.973 --> 00:18:20.464 You been asking about me? 00:18:23.185 --> 00:18:24.676 If you don't care, 00:18:25.605 --> 00:18:27.062 then leave. 00:18:27.732 --> 00:18:31.692 Give your spot to someone else. Someone that wants it, that wants to live. 00:18:36.365 --> 00:18:37.651 Okay. 00:18:39.952 --> 00:18:41.409 What are you doing? Will? 00:18:41.495 --> 00:18:43.452 Will, no! Please get down! 00:18:43.539 --> 00:18:45.201 Will, stop, please! 00:18:45.291 --> 00:18:47.032 Please get down now! 00:18:47.418 --> 00:18:49.501 Will, stop! Oh, my God! 00:18:53.758 --> 00:18:54.874 God! 00:18:55.593 --> 00:18:56.629 Relax! 00:19:01.599 --> 00:19:02.760 Fine. 00:19:04.268 --> 00:19:05.600 Stay up here then. 00:19:06.896 --> 00:19:08.603 Come on. It was a joke. 00:19:09.231 --> 00:19:11.018 Hey, it was a joke! 00:20:02.827 --> 00:20:03.827 Damn it! 00:20:26.767 --> 00:20:30.886 Where's your med cart, and your pills, and why's your AffloVest on the floor? 00:20:30.980 --> 00:20:33.188 Can... Can I see your regimen? 00:20:34.024 --> 00:20:37.438 Uh... not that it's any of your business. 00:20:45.745 --> 00:20:47.611 Is this... What? 00:20:49.373 --> 00:20:50.409 Why... 00:20:50.499 --> 00:20:52.081 Is this what an aneurysm looks like? 00:20:52.168 --> 00:20:54.125 - Why? Ugh! - Hey! 00:20:55.171 --> 00:20:58.255 I get that you have some kind of save-the-world hero complex going on, 00:20:58.340 --> 00:21:00.957 - but can you leave me out of it? - These meds are not optional. 00:21:01.051 --> 00:21:03.543 That's probably why they keep shoving them down my throat. 00:21:03.637 --> 00:21:05.094 You're making me crazy. 00:21:11.479 --> 00:21:13.095 Hey. 00:21:14.607 --> 00:21:15.893 Stella, come on! 00:21:17.610 --> 00:21:18.610 Six feet! 00:21:38.714 --> 00:21:43.004 I need you to follow your regimen strictly and completely, please. 00:21:44.094 --> 00:21:45.301 Why don't... 00:21:45.387 --> 00:21:47.800 Why don't you tell me what's going on, actually? 00:21:48.349 --> 00:21:51.433 Talk to me. I'm not gonna make any jokes or laugh. 00:21:53.813 --> 00:21:55.850 I have control issues. 00:21:57.149 --> 00:22:00.233 And I need to know that things are in order, 00:22:00.319 --> 00:22:02.185 and I know you're not doing your treatments 00:22:02.279 --> 00:22:04.862 and it's really, really messing me up. 00:22:04.949 --> 00:22:07.441 Okay, I wanna help you. 00:22:08.035 --> 00:22:09.151 I do. 00:22:10.955 --> 00:22:13.242 I don't even know how to do what you're asking me to. 00:22:13.332 --> 00:22:14.573 That's bullshit! 00:22:14.667 --> 00:22:18.035 That's bullshit! All CFers know how to administer their own treatments. 00:22:18.128 --> 00:22:19.968 We're practically doctors by the time we're 12. 00:22:20.047 --> 00:22:21.083 Are you serious? 00:22:21.173 --> 00:22:23.290 Am I actually messing you up? 00:22:23.551 --> 00:22:24.712 Yes. 00:22:26.220 --> 00:22:27.427 All right. 00:22:28.305 --> 00:22:29.466 I'll help you. 00:22:30.099 --> 00:22:31.431 But if I do, 00:22:34.311 --> 00:22:35.768 what's in it for me? 00:22:37.398 --> 00:22:39.060 No, not like... I... 00:22:39.567 --> 00:22:41.308 I wanna draw you. 00:22:42.570 --> 00:22:43.570 No. 00:22:43.654 --> 00:22:45.361 Why not? I'm serious. 00:22:46.282 --> 00:22:47.443 No. 00:22:52.037 --> 00:22:53.278 Okay. 00:22:54.456 --> 00:22:55.697 Then no deal. 00:22:56.166 --> 00:22:59.079 You really can't practice just a little bit of discipline 00:22:59.169 --> 00:23:00.626 even to save your own life? 00:23:00.713 --> 00:23:03.376 Stella, nothing is going to save our lives. 00:23:03.465 --> 00:23:05.331 We're breathing borrowed air. 00:23:06.719 --> 00:23:07.960 Enjoy it. 00:23:22.860 --> 00:23:23.860 Fine. 00:23:23.944 --> 00:23:27.813 But I'm not posing for hours on end. And your regimen, we're doing it my way. 00:23:27.907 --> 00:23:31.196 Okay, the first thing you're gonna do is get a med cart in your room. Deal? 00:23:32.661 --> 00:23:34.948 Deal. Shake on it? 00:23:39.543 --> 00:23:40.659 Funny. 00:23:51.305 --> 00:23:53.638 Ow. 00:23:54.016 --> 00:23:56.349 Shit! 00:23:59.355 --> 00:24:01.642 Oh, no, no, no. 00:24:03.025 --> 00:24:04.311 Hey. 00:24:06.695 --> 00:24:09.563 - You missed the show. - Yeah. You doing stunts in there? 00:24:09.657 --> 00:24:11.523 Well, there's no better place to break a leg. 00:24:12.034 --> 00:24:13.115 That's fair. 00:24:13.369 --> 00:24:14.576 I'm Will. 00:24:17.873 --> 00:24:18.989 I'm Poe. 00:24:20.417 --> 00:24:21.908 B. cepacia. 00:24:23.003 --> 00:24:24.369 Damn, that's rough. 00:24:25.422 --> 00:24:26.503 Yeah. 00:24:27.174 --> 00:24:29.006 So, no lung transplant for me. 00:24:29.093 --> 00:24:30.709 When did you contract it? 00:24:30.803 --> 00:24:33.136 About eight months ago now. It colonized so quickly. 00:24:33.222 --> 00:24:35.930 I was on the transplant list one minute and then... 00:24:39.478 --> 00:24:42.141 I'm sure that attitude is what's giving Stella fits. 00:24:42.523 --> 00:24:43.855 Yeah, what's up with that? 00:24:43.941 --> 00:24:46.433 She told me that she has control issues or something. 00:24:46.527 --> 00:24:49.941 Call it what you want. She's got her shit together. She keeps me in line. 00:24:50.406 --> 00:24:51.692 So, uh, 00:24:52.783 --> 00:24:54.194 have you two... 00:24:55.661 --> 00:24:57.869 No. 00:24:58.372 --> 00:24:59.658 No, no, no. 00:24:59.748 --> 00:25:02.365 I've known that girl since I was, like, seven. 00:25:02.751 --> 00:25:04.538 I don't know, man. 00:25:04.628 --> 00:25:06.119 Sounds like you love her. 00:25:06.213 --> 00:25:07.545 Of course I love her. 00:25:07.756 --> 00:25:09.622 So, why haven't you done anything about it? 00:25:10.217 --> 00:25:11.378 Because... 00:25:12.136 --> 00:25:13.798 she's not a he. 00:25:19.059 --> 00:25:20.971 Don't worry. I don't like white boys. 00:25:30.904 --> 00:25:34.898 Dr. Hamid said that you suddenly wanna be responsible for your own regimen. 00:25:35.701 --> 00:25:37.567 Don't make me regret this. 00:25:48.338 --> 00:25:51.797 - Did you wipe everything down? - Yes. This wasn't my idea, you know? 00:25:55.262 --> 00:25:56.719 Are we still clear? 00:25:56.805 --> 00:25:58.296 Yes. Hurry up. 00:25:59.600 --> 00:26:01.136 I'm almost done. 00:26:36.220 --> 00:26:38.553 Okay. Your med cart's all set up. 00:26:38.639 --> 00:26:40.471 I built an app for chronic illnesses. 00:26:40.557 --> 00:26:42.765 It'll alert you when to do your treatments and... 00:26:42.851 --> 00:26:44.467 Built an app? 00:26:44.561 --> 00:26:46.143 Like you built it? 00:26:46.772 --> 00:26:47.888 Surprise. 00:26:48.524 --> 00:26:49.731 It's pretty simple. 00:26:49.817 --> 00:26:51.353 You should be able to figure it out. 00:27:22.599 --> 00:27:26.218 Okay, Stella. Don't tell me that the one time you're interested in some guy, 00:27:26.311 --> 00:27:27.472 he's a CFer. 00:27:27.563 --> 00:27:29.930 I just helped him set up his med cart. 00:27:30.232 --> 00:27:32.189 That... That's it. That's all. 00:27:32.276 --> 00:27:33.767 I know you, Stella. 00:27:33.861 --> 00:27:36.069 Organizing a med cart is like foreplay. 00:27:39.825 --> 00:27:41.566 They're called manners! 00:27:54.756 --> 00:27:56.622 Are you doing your AffloVest? 00:27:58.093 --> 00:27:59.254 Yeah. 00:27:59.678 --> 00:28:00.964 Show me. 00:28:01.597 --> 00:28:03.680 I can't. I'm half-naked. 00:28:04.057 --> 00:28:06.640 You're supposed to be doing your AffloVest right now, 00:28:06.727 --> 00:28:08.013 and did you take your Creon? 00:28:08.645 --> 00:28:11.388 Are those the suppositories? 00:28:13.483 --> 00:28:14.483 Okay. 00:28:14.568 --> 00:28:18.107 Okay, I can't trust you, so this is how it's gonna work. 00:28:18.197 --> 00:28:19.688 We'll do our treatments together 00:28:19.781 --> 00:28:22.569 so that way I know you're actually doing them. Okay? 00:28:22.659 --> 00:28:26.198 Always looking for ways to spend more time with me, aren't you, Stella? 00:28:26.288 --> 00:28:27.288 Bye. 00:28:28.332 --> 00:28:30.949 I've been doing this since I was a little kid. 00:28:33.212 --> 00:28:36.372 So you just pour them all in the pudding and stir it around. Are you doing that? 00:29:28.100 --> 00:29:29.100 Good night. 00:29:34.231 --> 00:29:36.473 The divorce diet doesn't look good on you, Mom. 00:29:37.025 --> 00:29:38.141 What are you talking about? 00:29:38.235 --> 00:29:41.399 You're too thin. Dad needs a bath. You guys are stealing my look. 00:29:42.072 --> 00:29:43.779 I'm stealing your look? 00:29:44.241 --> 00:29:46.733 - Mm-hmm. - Okay, maybe I need this more than you do. 00:29:46.827 --> 00:29:48.910 No! 00:29:48.996 --> 00:29:50.453 - Oh, my God! - Gross. 00:29:51.123 --> 00:29:52.534 How did that happen? 00:29:52.624 --> 00:29:54.035 How did it happen? 00:29:54.126 --> 00:29:56.584 Oh, man! We need napkins. 00:29:57.379 --> 00:29:58.961 Aw, here, honey. 00:30:18.317 --> 00:30:19.774 I love you so much. 00:30:21.862 --> 00:30:23.945 I know. I love you, too. 00:30:25.866 --> 00:30:28.108 I don't know what I'd do without you. 00:30:37.252 --> 00:30:38.413 How does it feel? 00:30:38.503 --> 00:30:40.665 Not great. 00:30:41.923 --> 00:30:44.506 Let's try some Bactroban, see how it looks in a day or two. 00:30:44.593 --> 00:30:46.050 Maybe we can clear it up, huh? 00:30:48.722 --> 00:30:50.088 Oh. I'll be at the gym. 00:30:51.058 --> 00:30:52.058 Thanks, Doc! 00:30:57.731 --> 00:31:00.314 - Hey, you know, this sucks. - Mm-hmm. 00:31:00.400 --> 00:31:03.893 When does this deal of ours become mutually beneficial? 00:31:05.155 --> 00:31:08.819 I've done everything you've asked with no return on my investment. 00:31:10.410 --> 00:31:12.447 You really wanna draw me after we work out? 00:31:12.537 --> 00:31:13.618 Yeah. 00:31:14.623 --> 00:31:15.659 No. 00:31:15.749 --> 00:31:18.708 I'm gross and sweaty and smell. 00:31:18.794 --> 00:31:20.751 "My hair is dirty. 00:31:20.837 --> 00:31:22.328 I'm too tired. 00:31:22.798 --> 00:31:24.755 My med cart is messy." 00:31:24.841 --> 00:31:25.957 Fine. 00:31:26.676 --> 00:31:28.759 I'll sweat harder then. Just for you. 00:31:30.263 --> 00:31:31.925 I'm going to draw that sweat. 00:31:42.109 --> 00:31:43.395 What's that? 00:31:44.027 --> 00:31:45.768 My to-do list. 00:31:45.862 --> 00:31:47.444 To-do list? 00:31:47.906 --> 00:31:50.819 That's pretty old-fashioned for someone that builds apps. 00:31:51.410 --> 00:31:54.949 Yeah, well, the app doesn't give me the satisfaction of doing... 00:31:55.872 --> 00:31:57.238 that. 00:32:01.294 --> 00:32:03.627 What else is on that to-do list of yours? 00:32:04.005 --> 00:32:05.837 My master list or my daily list? 00:32:05.924 --> 00:32:07.711 Yeah, of course you have two lists. 00:32:08.635 --> 00:32:10.627 The master list. That's the big stuff, right? 00:32:11.930 --> 00:32:12.930 Okay. 00:32:13.014 --> 00:32:15.722 "Volunteer in an important political campaign." 00:32:15.809 --> 00:32:16.845 Done. 00:32:16.935 --> 00:32:19.598 "Study all the works of William Shakespeare." Done. 00:32:20.021 --> 00:32:22.229 "Share everything I know about CF with other people." 00:32:22.315 --> 00:32:23.556 That's my YouTube page. 00:32:23.650 --> 00:32:26.563 So, your plan is to die really smart 00:32:27.112 --> 00:32:29.980 so that you can join the debate team of the dead or something? 00:32:30.740 --> 00:32:32.527 What about traveling the world? 00:32:38.957 --> 00:32:40.573 "Learn to play piano." 00:32:40.959 --> 00:32:42.245 Done. 00:32:42.335 --> 00:32:44.201 "Speak fluent French." 00:32:47.424 --> 00:32:49.086 Can you look at me for a sec? 00:32:50.343 --> 00:32:51.459 You wanna hear my list? 00:32:51.553 --> 00:32:52.669 No. 00:32:53.597 --> 00:32:55.680 Painting class with Bob Ross. 00:32:57.893 --> 00:33:00.431 He's dead. 00:33:00.520 --> 00:33:02.807 Yeah, never mind. Uh... 00:33:03.815 --> 00:33:05.306 Sex in the Vatican. 00:33:05.817 --> 00:33:08.651 I'd rather help you meet Bob Ross. 00:33:10.655 --> 00:33:11.862 I don't know. 00:33:13.283 --> 00:33:15.149 I'd like to travel the world. 00:33:16.036 --> 00:33:17.993 Actually get to see some of it and not... 00:33:18.997 --> 00:33:20.989 from the inside of these hospitals. 00:33:28.131 --> 00:33:29.338 Thank you. 00:33:30.759 --> 00:33:31.759 For what? 00:33:33.178 --> 00:33:34.794 For saying something real. 00:33:39.518 --> 00:33:41.009 Was it the Vatican thing? 00:33:42.312 --> 00:33:43.473 Can you hurry up? 00:34:02.290 --> 00:34:05.078 Okay. I just thought you might want to know how this feels. You ready? 00:34:05.168 --> 00:34:06.909 And I brought a jumping buddy. 00:34:07.462 --> 00:34:09.169 Don't worry. I'll hold him tight. 00:34:10.090 --> 00:34:12.127 All right, Abby, ready to jump out of a plane? 00:34:12.217 --> 00:34:15.210 Ready! Happy birthday, Stella. 00:34:29.651 --> 00:34:31.688 I love you, Stella. I'll see you soon. 00:34:32.487 --> 00:34:33.728 I love you, too. 00:34:45.417 --> 00:34:47.409 I like seeing you like this. 00:34:47.502 --> 00:34:48.868 Like what? 00:34:48.962 --> 00:34:50.294 Hopeful. 00:34:52.591 --> 00:34:53.707 All right. 00:34:55.760 --> 00:34:56.921 Hey, Julie. 00:35:00.724 --> 00:35:02.260 What if this doesn't work? 00:35:03.977 --> 00:35:05.468 What if it does? 00:35:45.560 --> 00:35:47.017 Ha-ha! 00:35:53.818 --> 00:35:55.184 Why cartoons? 00:35:55.862 --> 00:35:57.353 They're subversive. 00:35:58.365 --> 00:36:01.483 They can be light and funny but pack a powerful punch. 00:36:01.576 --> 00:36:05.069 I think a well-drawn cartoon can say a lot more than words ever could. 00:36:05.163 --> 00:36:06.324 Yeah? 00:36:06.414 --> 00:36:08.531 What does this say exactly? 00:36:09.292 --> 00:36:12.535 A lot more than words ever could. 00:36:13.046 --> 00:36:14.878 I think it's actually pretty good. 00:36:15.256 --> 00:36:17.293 I think that's really good. Behind you. 00:36:17.384 --> 00:36:18.670 What is that? 00:36:19.219 --> 00:36:21.211 Oh, those are lungs. That's brilliant. 00:36:21.304 --> 00:36:22.465 Did you do that? 00:36:22.555 --> 00:36:25.389 Uh, no, my older sister, Abby. 00:36:25.475 --> 00:36:26.807 Wow. She's really good. 00:36:26.893 --> 00:36:29.306 I'd love to see more of her stuff. Do you have any? 00:36:31.272 --> 00:36:35.016 We don't have to, uh, share our stories, okay? 00:36:35.110 --> 00:36:37.067 We can just do our treatments together. 00:36:44.452 --> 00:36:47.786 Hey, guys! I have to get a nasal poly... 00:36:47.872 --> 00:36:49.238 Polypectomy. 00:36:49.332 --> 00:36:51.449 We're removing polyps from your nasal passages. 00:36:51.543 --> 00:36:52.909 And Stella's nervous. 00:36:53.002 --> 00:36:54.959 But I'm gonna be there to sing her to sleep. 00:36:55.046 --> 00:36:56.662 Just like always. 00:36:56.756 --> 00:36:59.339 ♪ I love you a bushel and a peck ♪ 00:36:59.426 --> 00:37:02.169 - ♪ A bushel and a peck ♪ - Don't sing the whole thing yet. 00:37:02.262 --> 00:37:04.115 - You're gonna jinx it. Shh! - ♪ A hug around the neck ♪ 00:37:04.139 --> 00:37:05.366 - ♪ And a barrel and a heap ♪ - You're gonna jinx it. 00:37:05.390 --> 00:37:08.929 ♪ And a barrel and a heap And I'm talkin' in my sleep about you ♪ 00:37:09.811 --> 00:37:11.097 But seriously. 00:37:11.521 --> 00:37:14.935 I'm gonna be there when you go to sleep and I'll be right here when you wake up. 00:37:16.985 --> 00:37:18.192 Okay? 00:37:19.237 --> 00:37:20.444 Okay. 00:37:21.448 --> 00:37:22.984 I love you. 00:37:23.074 --> 00:37:24.315 I love you, too. 00:37:24.409 --> 00:37:26.321 My sister, Abby, ladies and gentlemen. 00:37:26.411 --> 00:37:28.403 - She's single, by the way. - Okay, stop it! 00:37:28.496 --> 00:37:30.078 - Her digits are... - Stop it! 00:37:30.707 --> 00:37:31.914 That was last year. 00:37:32.000 --> 00:37:34.492 Abby's not in any of the videos after that. 00:37:34.586 --> 00:37:37.750 I found Abby's Instagram. I mean, it's mostly art, 00:37:37.839 --> 00:37:39.831 her and Stella, but you're right. 00:37:40.550 --> 00:37:42.633 She hasn't posted in, like, a year. 00:37:54.856 --> 00:37:57.189 Barb didn't see you come in, did she? 00:37:57.275 --> 00:37:58.516 No. 00:38:10.622 --> 00:38:12.204 Abby's dead, isn't she? 00:38:16.211 --> 00:38:17.873 You're as delicate as a jackhammer. 00:38:18.671 --> 00:38:21.630 We don't have time for delicacy, Stella. We're dying. 00:38:22.801 --> 00:38:25.965 Can you stop reminding me that I'm dying? 00:38:26.679 --> 00:38:28.921 I get it. I get that. 00:38:29.015 --> 00:38:30.426 - Okay? I just can't. - Okay. 00:38:30.517 --> 00:38:32.634 I have been dying my whole life. 00:38:32.727 --> 00:38:35.720 Every birthday, we celebrated it like it was my last one. 00:38:35.814 --> 00:38:37.271 - I know. Me, too. - You don't know. 00:38:37.357 --> 00:38:40.270 Because then, yeah, as you pointed out, Abby died. 00:38:42.737 --> 00:38:44.399 And then my parents' marriage died. 00:38:44.489 --> 00:38:46.606 And it was supposed to be me. 00:38:46.699 --> 00:38:49.942 Everyone was ready for that. Everyone was prepared for that. 00:38:50.036 --> 00:38:51.993 I just... I can't die. 00:38:53.957 --> 00:38:56.290 I just... My parents... I can't. 00:38:57.293 --> 00:38:59.580 Is this why you're so obsessed with your regimen? 00:39:00.588 --> 00:39:03.422 Y-You're not afraid of dying. You have survivor's guilt. 00:39:03.508 --> 00:39:05.921 - Will? - You're a sick girl with survivor's guilt. 00:39:06.010 --> 00:39:08.218 - This is out of your control. - Look, look, Will. 00:39:08.304 --> 00:39:10.796 I just don't have any other choice, okay? 00:39:10.890 --> 00:39:13.450 - That's what I'm trying to tell you... - I don't! Will, I don't. 00:39:15.186 --> 00:39:16.848 Okay, Stella. Hey, I'm sorry. 00:39:16.938 --> 00:39:19.271 We're supposed to be medita... Stella, come on! 00:39:21.568 --> 00:39:23.150 You knew he had boundary issues. 00:39:23.236 --> 00:39:25.979 For what it's worth, I don't think he meant to hurt you. 00:39:26.072 --> 00:39:27.483 Yeah, but it's still annoying. 00:39:27.574 --> 00:39:31.238 Like, he said "Abby" and "dead" in the same sentence like it was no big deal. 00:39:37.709 --> 00:39:39.416 I should've been there. 00:39:39.502 --> 00:39:42.415 - I should've been there. - Stop. Stella. 00:39:43.840 --> 00:39:45.376 Stella, look at me. 00:39:45.884 --> 00:39:47.546 You can't know. 00:39:47.635 --> 00:39:49.467 You just can't. 00:39:49.554 --> 00:39:51.420 Stop torturing yourself. 00:39:52.640 --> 00:39:54.677 Oh, this disease is a prison. 00:39:55.226 --> 00:39:57.058 I wanna hug you. 00:39:58.563 --> 00:40:00.805 Just pretend that I'm doing it right now. 00:40:03.526 --> 00:40:04.607 I love you. 00:40:06.070 --> 00:40:07.186 I love you, too. 00:40:09.782 --> 00:40:11.239 You wanna get ice cream? 00:40:11.326 --> 00:40:13.113 - Yes. - Come on. 00:40:35.266 --> 00:40:38.100 If the infection gets into the bloodstream... 00:40:41.356 --> 00:40:42.597 Hey. 00:40:44.108 --> 00:40:45.474 It's gonna be okay. 00:40:45.568 --> 00:40:46.900 You don't know that. 00:40:47.570 --> 00:40:50.313 You're right. I don't. It's risky. 00:40:51.032 --> 00:40:53.319 But sepsis is the bigger monster. 00:40:55.453 --> 00:40:56.660 Hey. 00:40:58.081 --> 00:40:59.743 You're a fighter, Stella Grant. 00:40:59.832 --> 00:41:01.573 You always have been. 00:41:05.213 --> 00:41:06.329 So... 00:41:07.674 --> 00:41:08.835 Yeah? 00:41:09.217 --> 00:41:10.298 Yeah. 00:41:11.678 --> 00:41:13.044 Tomorrow morning, then. 00:41:15.181 --> 00:41:16.717 I'll let your parents know. 00:42:09.777 --> 00:42:10.938 Hey. 00:42:12.572 --> 00:42:13.608 You're here. 00:42:14.532 --> 00:42:15.568 I'm here. 00:42:15.658 --> 00:42:17.991 I got your cartoon. You're forgiven. Back up. 00:42:21.497 --> 00:42:23.177 You missed our treatment. What's going on? 00:42:23.249 --> 00:42:25.081 Infected G-tube. 00:42:26.002 --> 00:42:29.541 Dr. Hamid's worried about sepsis, so she's replacing it in the morning. 00:42:30.339 --> 00:42:32.626 - I'm going under general. - Shit. 00:42:32.717 --> 00:42:34.458 Are your lungs up for that? 00:42:36.179 --> 00:42:39.889 Do your nebulizer at 8:00, and your AffloVest, okay? 00:43:46.624 --> 00:43:48.081 What are you doing here? 00:43:49.043 --> 00:43:50.705 I thought this was the bathroom. Honestly. 00:43:52.296 --> 00:43:54.253 It's your first surgery without Abby. 00:43:55.716 --> 00:43:57.127 How do you know that? 00:43:57.218 --> 00:43:58.709 I've seen all your movies. 00:44:00.138 --> 00:44:01.504 Some might say 00:44:02.181 --> 00:44:03.547 I'm your biggest fan. 00:44:03.641 --> 00:44:06.679 So, I really hope that I don't mess this up. 00:44:10.815 --> 00:44:14.058 ♪ I love you a bushel and a peck ♪ 00:44:14.485 --> 00:44:15.896 - ♪ A bushel and a peck ♪ - Go away. 00:44:15.987 --> 00:44:18.104 - ♪ And a hug around the neck ♪ - Go away. 00:44:18.197 --> 00:44:21.690 ♪ A hug around the neck And a barrel and a heap ♪ 00:44:21.784 --> 00:44:23.241 ♪ A barrel and a heap ♪ 00:44:23.327 --> 00:44:26.570 ♪ And I'm talkin' in my sleep about you ♪ 00:44:28.583 --> 00:44:30.745 Our grandma used to sing that to us. 00:44:30.835 --> 00:44:33.873 I had to Google it. It's really old. 00:44:33.963 --> 00:44:34.963 I know. 00:44:35.047 --> 00:44:36.163 What the heck's... 00:44:36.257 --> 00:44:38.044 - a barrel and a heap? - Barrel and a heap? 00:44:38.134 --> 00:44:39.796 Yeah. 00:44:47.977 --> 00:44:49.343 You're gonna be okay. 00:44:50.104 --> 00:44:51.436 Promise? 00:44:58.863 --> 00:45:00.070 Hey. 00:45:00.948 --> 00:45:03.235 You ready to get this show on the road? 00:45:03.743 --> 00:45:04.824 Yeah. 00:45:16.547 --> 00:45:18.413 Oh, hell, no! 00:45:18.507 --> 00:45:19.707 Will! 00:45:24.096 --> 00:45:25.428 She was scared. 00:45:25.973 --> 00:45:27.635 I just wanted to do something nice. 00:45:32.521 --> 00:45:34.012 Come on! 00:45:34.774 --> 00:45:38.358 She's in more danger under the anesthesia than she is with me. 00:45:42.823 --> 00:45:44.064 Trevor Von. 00:45:45.368 --> 00:45:48.156 That's who you remind me of. 00:45:48.246 --> 00:45:50.829 Trevor Von and Amy Presley. 00:45:50.915 --> 00:45:52.781 Oh, they were... 00:45:52.875 --> 00:45:54.457 They were in love. 00:45:55.920 --> 00:45:58.628 And I let them break the rules so they could be happy. 00:45:59.006 --> 00:46:00.463 And let me guess. 00:46:01.425 --> 00:46:02.425 They died? 00:46:02.510 --> 00:46:04.422 Yes, Will, they did. 00:46:06.764 --> 00:46:08.630 On my watch. 00:46:11.519 --> 00:46:14.353 And I'll be damned if I let that happen again. 00:46:36.961 --> 00:46:38.702 It's gonna be okay. 00:46:57.356 --> 00:46:58.642 You know what to do. 00:46:58.733 --> 00:46:59.974 Mm-hmm. 00:47:01.944 --> 00:47:04.561 Ten, nine... 00:47:05.239 --> 00:47:06.480 ...eight, 00:47:07.283 --> 00:47:08.649 seven... 00:47:09.327 --> 00:47:10.327 six... 00:47:10.411 --> 00:47:12.073 Shh. 00:47:46.447 --> 00:47:47.688 Hmm. 00:48:05.341 --> 00:48:07.754 Oh... 00:48:41.210 --> 00:48:43.668 Hi, it's me. 00:48:44.296 --> 00:48:48.540 Call me 'cause I miss you, okay? 00:48:49.343 --> 00:48:53.132 But don't call me, 'cause I just got out of surgery and I'm really tired. 00:48:53.806 --> 00:48:57.015 But call me though when you get this because... 00:48:58.269 --> 00:48:59.385 you're cute. 00:48:59.478 --> 00:49:02.346 And I wanna see you 00:49:03.357 --> 00:49:05.815 and your fluffy little hair 00:49:06.986 --> 00:49:10.525 and your little skinny legs. 00:49:10.614 --> 00:49:11.900 Okay? 00:49:12.575 --> 00:49:14.487 Don't call me, though, because... 00:49:15.369 --> 00:49:18.953 if I hear your sexy voice, I won't be able to sleep, so... 00:49:20.541 --> 00:49:23.079 Call me when you get this, okay? 00:49:24.503 --> 00:49:25.835 Bye. 00:50:41.539 --> 00:50:43.030 Will's not coming. 00:50:45.209 --> 00:50:46.416 Will? 00:50:48.003 --> 00:50:50.086 I'm not leaving until you open the door. 00:50:54.134 --> 00:50:55.341 I can't. 00:50:58.430 --> 00:51:01.138 Just please open the door and we can talk about this. 00:51:01.225 --> 00:51:03.433 Okay? I don't care what Barb said, just... 00:51:03.894 --> 00:51:05.101 open the door. 00:51:05.187 --> 00:51:06.849 Stella... 00:51:07.273 --> 00:51:08.389 I can't. 00:51:08.482 --> 00:51:09.939 Will, come on. 00:51:23.914 --> 00:51:25.371 Go away, Stella. 00:51:30.045 --> 00:51:31.661 Maybe it's better this way. 00:51:31.755 --> 00:51:33.917 No, I can figure this out. 00:51:34.008 --> 00:51:35.544 I need to figure this out. 00:51:35.634 --> 00:51:37.341 We're not normal kids. 00:51:38.596 --> 00:51:40.337 We don't get to take chances like this. 00:51:40.431 --> 00:51:42.844 Oh, come on. You're not gonna give me that, too? 00:51:42.933 --> 00:51:44.799 Admit what's going on here. 00:51:44.893 --> 00:51:46.885 Will's a risk-taker, just like Abby. 00:51:48.606 --> 00:51:50.142 What's that supposed to mean? 00:51:52.026 --> 00:51:54.860 You think that I'm the one that's afraid to take risks? 00:51:55.529 --> 00:51:58.647 What about you and your life and your relationships? 00:51:58.741 --> 00:52:00.824 You and Tim, you and Rick, you and Michael. 00:52:00.909 --> 00:52:02.775 - Don't go there. - Oh, I could keep going. 00:52:02.870 --> 00:52:05.078 They knew you were sick and they loved you. 00:52:05.164 --> 00:52:08.453 - You were the one who ran. - You don't know what you're talking about. 00:52:08.542 --> 00:52:10.829 You ruined every chance you've ever had at love, 00:52:10.919 --> 00:52:12.706 so just keep your advice to yourself. 00:53:36.964 --> 00:53:38.125 Bitch. 00:53:38.590 --> 00:53:39.831 Asshole. 00:53:41.844 --> 00:53:43.460 You know, you're right. 00:53:44.388 --> 00:53:45.720 I am afraid. 00:53:46.473 --> 00:53:48.465 You know what someone gets for loving me? 00:53:49.059 --> 00:53:53.099 They get to pay for all my care, and then they get to watch me die. 00:53:54.773 --> 00:53:58.107 Deductibles, meds, hospital stays, surgeries. 00:53:58.193 --> 00:54:01.152 When I turn 18, there's no more full coverage. 00:54:01.530 --> 00:54:03.066 Who should I put that on? 00:54:03.157 --> 00:54:05.069 Michael or my family? 00:54:05.993 --> 00:54:07.700 It's my sickness, it's my problem. 00:54:10.330 --> 00:54:12.788 Maybe we can get Will to marry you. He's loaded. 00:54:14.460 --> 00:54:16.372 He's not picky. He likes you. 00:54:21.967 --> 00:54:23.333 I am sorry... 00:54:24.762 --> 00:54:26.298 about you and Will. 00:54:41.028 --> 00:54:42.644 Stella? 00:54:44.531 --> 00:54:45.738 What? 00:54:47.993 --> 00:54:49.325 Stella? 00:55:20.776 --> 00:55:21.983 Hello. 00:55:22.069 --> 00:55:26.313 There is something a little bit different I want to talk about today. 00:55:26.990 --> 00:55:29.073 Burkholderia cepacia. 00:55:29.868 --> 00:55:32.326 The risks, the restrictions, 00:55:32.412 --> 00:55:34.950 and the rules of engagement. 00:55:35.040 --> 00:55:39.626 B. cepacia is a hardy bacteria. 00:55:39.711 --> 00:55:45.082 Okay? It is so adaptive that it literally feeds on penicillin. 00:55:45.759 --> 00:55:48.923 So, our first line of defense is... 00:55:49.555 --> 00:55:53.469 Cal Stat, a hospital-grade hand sterilizer. 00:55:53.976 --> 00:55:56.969 Apply liberally and often. 00:55:57.062 --> 00:56:01.432 Next is good old-fashioned latex! 00:56:01.525 --> 00:56:03.983 Tried and true. 00:56:04.069 --> 00:56:07.278 Used for protection in all types of activities. 00:56:08.323 --> 00:56:13.318 B. cepacia thrives best in saliva or phlegm. 00:56:13.412 --> 00:56:16.075 Fun fact, a cough can travel six feet, 00:56:16.164 --> 00:56:19.202 a sneeze can travel up to 200 miles per hour. 00:56:19.293 --> 00:56:24.664 But the "no saliva" thing also means no kissing. 00:56:25.507 --> 00:56:26.543 Ever. 00:56:27.259 --> 00:56:30.002 So, our best defense is distance. 00:56:30.596 --> 00:56:33.134 Six feet at all times. 00:56:33.932 --> 00:56:35.548 Ta-da! 00:56:35.976 --> 00:56:37.262 Here's a pool cue. 00:56:37.352 --> 00:56:40.140 It measures approximately five feet. 00:56:41.481 --> 00:56:43.347 Five feet. 00:56:43.442 --> 00:56:46.276 I've given a lot of thought to foot number six. 00:56:47.321 --> 00:56:49.358 And you know what? It made me mad. 00:56:50.490 --> 00:56:54.530 When you have cystic fibrosis, so much is taken from you. 00:56:55.162 --> 00:56:56.869 You live every day of your life 00:56:56.955 --> 00:56:59.413 according to treatments, and pills, and schedules. 00:56:59.499 --> 00:57:01.286 Most of us can't have children. 00:57:01.710 --> 00:57:04.794 A lot of us don't even live long enough to try to have children. 00:57:04.880 --> 00:57:08.373 Shit, it's complicated to try to explain, 00:57:08.467 --> 00:57:12.051 but it's even hard to fall in love. 00:57:14.056 --> 00:57:17.220 So, after all that CF has stolen from me, 00:57:17.976 --> 00:57:19.183 from us, 00:57:19.269 --> 00:57:22.057 I don't mind stealing a little something back. 00:57:23.148 --> 00:57:24.514 One foot. 00:57:25.609 --> 00:57:27.316 One fucking foot 00:57:27.986 --> 00:57:30.945 of space, of distance, of length, or whatever you wanna call it. 00:57:31.031 --> 00:57:33.318 I don't mind stealing that back. 00:57:34.076 --> 00:57:35.658 Because CF... 00:57:38.121 --> 00:57:39.908 you're not the thief anymore. 00:57:40.582 --> 00:57:41.993 I'm the thief now. 00:57:55.514 --> 00:57:56.880 Five feet apart. 00:57:57.432 --> 00:57:58.513 Deal? 00:58:01.687 --> 00:58:02.973 Are you in? 00:58:14.157 --> 00:58:15.568 I'm so in. 00:58:20.872 --> 00:58:23.159 Atrium. 9:00. 00:58:34.302 --> 00:58:36.043 Why didn't I pack anything nice? 00:58:36.138 --> 00:58:39.722 Oh, 'cause you always pack for a hot hospital romance. 00:59:08.712 --> 00:59:10.248 Is this see-through? 00:59:11.256 --> 00:59:13.043 Don't even think about it, ho. 00:59:45.832 --> 00:59:47.323 Hi. 00:59:48.251 --> 00:59:49.367 Hi. 01:00:13.068 --> 01:00:15.276 He cut and ran when I was born. 01:00:15.362 --> 01:00:17.854 I guess having a sick kid wasn't part of his plan. 01:00:18.532 --> 01:00:19.943 What about your mom? 01:00:20.033 --> 01:00:22.867 She's beautiful and driven and smart. 01:00:22.953 --> 01:00:26.788 She's just focused on me and me alone. 01:00:28.291 --> 01:00:32.376 So, starting tomorrow, when I'm 18, I will be making the decisions for myself. 01:00:32.754 --> 01:00:34.211 Wait, wait, wait, wait. 01:00:34.881 --> 01:00:36.167 Tomorrow's your birthday? 01:00:37.843 --> 01:00:41.007 You could have told me that. I don't have a present for you. 01:00:42.764 --> 01:00:45.802 How about you just promise to stick around for the next one? 01:00:49.229 --> 01:00:50.310 Come on. 01:00:51.815 --> 01:00:53.477 I'm getting out of here. 01:00:56.361 --> 01:00:58.193 There is this one theory I like 01:00:58.697 --> 01:01:01.656 that says, "To understand death, you have to look at birth." 01:01:03.118 --> 01:01:04.734 So, like, 01:01:05.120 --> 01:01:09.080 while we're in the womb, we're living that existence, 01:01:09.166 --> 01:01:13.627 not knowing that our next existence is just an inch away. 01:01:14.296 --> 01:01:17.380 So, maybe it's the same with death. 01:01:17.465 --> 01:01:22.631 Maybe death is just the next life, but an inch away. 01:01:24.055 --> 01:01:27.799 Or maybe it's just a big sleep, baby. 01:01:29.144 --> 01:01:30.385 Lights out. 01:01:31.104 --> 01:01:32.265 Done and done. 01:01:32.981 --> 01:01:34.142 No. 01:01:36.943 --> 01:01:38.525 No, there's no way that... 01:01:40.030 --> 01:01:43.364 Abby just blinked out. 01:01:43.450 --> 01:01:45.032 I refuse to believe it. 01:01:46.828 --> 01:01:49.241 What happened with Abby? 01:01:53.835 --> 01:01:56.748 She was cliff diving in California. 01:01:57.923 --> 01:02:00.506 She landed wrong, broke her neck and drowned. 01:02:04.471 --> 01:02:06.679 They said she didn't feel any pain, but... 01:02:08.391 --> 01:02:10.508 how would they know if she felt pain? 01:02:11.853 --> 01:02:15.017 I was supposed to be there with her, but I got sick. 01:02:15.482 --> 01:02:17.269 Like I always do. 01:02:19.569 --> 01:02:22.562 I just keep imagining it over and over again, 01:02:23.782 --> 01:02:25.114 what she was feeling. 01:02:31.081 --> 01:02:33.619 Without knowing that, she just never stops dying. 01:02:33.708 --> 01:02:35.040 Stella. 01:02:35.627 --> 01:02:38.586 Even if you were there, you still wouldn't know. 01:02:38.672 --> 01:02:40.208 But I wasn't there. 01:02:43.677 --> 01:02:45.293 She died alone. 01:02:48.014 --> 01:02:49.676 Isn't that how we're gonna die? 01:02:51.434 --> 01:02:54.142 Drowning, just without the water. 01:02:55.063 --> 01:02:57.271 Our own fluids doing the dirty work. 01:03:01.611 --> 01:03:03.477 I think about that last breath a lot. 01:03:04.864 --> 01:03:06.480 Gasping for air, 01:03:07.867 --> 01:03:09.449 not getting any. 01:03:11.162 --> 01:03:12.448 No air, just... 01:03:14.374 --> 01:03:15.615 black. 01:03:17.877 --> 01:03:19.459 But that's only on Mondays. 01:03:19.546 --> 01:03:21.208 Otherwise, I don't dwell on it. 01:03:25.427 --> 01:03:27.384 There's that smile. 01:03:33.518 --> 01:03:34.975 God, you're beautiful. 01:03:36.938 --> 01:03:38.349 And brave. 01:03:43.361 --> 01:03:44.977 I wish I could touch you. 01:04:33.828 --> 01:04:35.160 I lied... 01:04:35.914 --> 01:04:37.371 when we met. 01:04:40.418 --> 01:04:41.534 I've never had sex. 01:04:46.216 --> 01:04:48.424 I've never wanted anyone to see me. 01:04:48.510 --> 01:04:50.001 The scars, the... 01:04:53.848 --> 01:04:55.805 the tube, nothing about it's sexy. 01:04:57.268 --> 01:04:59.100 Everything about you is sexy. 01:05:01.940 --> 01:05:03.397 I think you're perfect. 01:07:10.527 --> 01:07:12.393 - Good morning. - Good morning. 01:07:19.160 --> 01:07:20.901 See those lights out there? 01:07:21.329 --> 01:07:23.491 Abby and I would call them stars 01:07:23.581 --> 01:07:25.664 and we would make wishes. 01:07:27.835 --> 01:07:29.872 She'd never tell me what her wish was, but... 01:07:32.090 --> 01:07:34.298 I knew she wished for new lungs for me. 01:07:35.843 --> 01:07:37.584 I hope she gets her wish. 01:07:38.012 --> 01:07:39.969 Yeah, me too. 01:07:43.017 --> 01:07:44.974 - Mornin', Barb. - Good morning, Robert. 01:08:11.462 --> 01:08:12.998 Where are they? 01:08:14.507 --> 01:08:15.748 Who? 01:08:16.551 --> 01:08:18.133 What are you talking about? 01:08:31.190 --> 01:08:34.274 - Oh, shit. Barb knows we're gone. - Okay. 01:08:34.360 --> 01:08:37.398 Uh, she'll look for me first in the NICU, so... 01:08:38.281 --> 01:08:40.238 Bye! Okay. 01:10:15.545 --> 01:10:17.377 I'm free! 01:10:18.464 --> 01:10:19.625 Oh... 01:10:20.049 --> 01:10:21.631 Oh, my gosh! 01:10:21.718 --> 01:10:23.050 Happy birthday! 01:10:23.136 --> 01:10:24.843 I'm so sorry. I forgot. 01:10:24.929 --> 01:10:26.045 No, it's fine. 01:10:26.139 --> 01:10:28.158 What are you doing? Are you busy? Let's take a walk. 01:10:28.182 --> 01:10:29.889 I can't right now. 01:10:29.976 --> 01:10:31.217 I'm sorry. 01:10:31.978 --> 01:10:32.978 Studying. 01:10:33.062 --> 01:10:34.519 Maybe later? 01:10:35.022 --> 01:10:36.763 My friends are actually coming later. 01:10:36.858 --> 01:10:38.099 That's all right. 01:10:38.192 --> 01:10:39.649 We'll figure something out. 01:10:40.862 --> 01:10:42.444 I was just, uh, 01:10:43.239 --> 01:10:44.605 missing you. 01:10:47.702 --> 01:10:49.318 Talk to you later. 01:10:49.412 --> 01:10:51.244 All right. Bye. 01:10:57.336 --> 01:10:58.452 Jason. 01:11:00.173 --> 01:11:01.209 Yeah, no. Don't... 01:11:01.299 --> 01:11:03.040 No. Don't worry about it. It's fine. 01:11:03.760 --> 01:11:05.717 No, seriously, I'm not mad. 01:11:07.180 --> 01:11:09.137 It's fine. Just do your thing. 01:11:10.391 --> 01:11:11.848 I'll talk to you tomorrow. 01:13:50.635 --> 01:13:52.297 Thought you'd never find me. 01:13:55.097 --> 01:13:56.713 I know it's late, 01:13:56.807 --> 01:13:59.299 but we had to wait till the cafeteria closed. 01:13:59.936 --> 01:14:00.936 "We"? 01:14:00.937 --> 01:14:02.428 Mm-hmm. 01:14:06.943 --> 01:14:08.855 Surprise! 01:14:08.945 --> 01:14:11.562 Happy birthday, Will! 01:14:12.281 --> 01:14:14.398 We felt so bad for ditching you, dude. 01:14:14.492 --> 01:14:17.735 But your girlfriend DM'd us and convinced us to surprise you, man. 01:14:17.828 --> 01:14:19.535 - "Girlfriend"? - Happy birthday. 01:14:19.622 --> 01:14:20.703 You're so good. 01:14:20.790 --> 01:14:22.497 Yeah, I'm good. 01:14:22.583 --> 01:14:25.041 - I can't believe he's real. - I know! 01:14:25.127 --> 01:14:28.211 - And he's even hotter in person. - Seriously. 01:14:28.297 --> 01:14:30.380 Hey, the food's almost ready! 01:14:31.008 --> 01:14:33.716 And happy birthday! 01:14:40.226 --> 01:14:42.969 Just wanted to observe the master at work. 01:14:43.437 --> 01:14:45.804 - Are those roses? - Mm-hmm. 01:14:47.566 --> 01:14:50.183 They're so beautiful. How do you do that? 01:14:50.528 --> 01:14:51.860 I've been practicing. 01:14:55.866 --> 01:14:58.483 'Cause next month, Michael and I are gonna go see my mom. 01:14:59.495 --> 01:15:00.702 Really? 01:15:02.164 --> 01:15:04.406 He's coming to lunch tomorrow and I'm gonna go for it. 01:15:04.500 --> 01:15:06.958 Oh, my God! 01:15:09.296 --> 01:15:10.332 He loves me. 01:15:11.465 --> 01:15:12.626 And I love him, too. 01:15:13.843 --> 01:15:17.177 - Aw, Poe, I'm... I'm so happy! - No. 01:15:17.263 --> 01:15:20.176 Don't go all soppy on me. You know I can't let a girl cry alone. 01:15:22.393 --> 01:15:24.134 They're hap... They're happy tears. 01:15:25.062 --> 01:15:26.678 I'm happy for you, Poe. 01:15:32.069 --> 01:15:33.185 Let's eat! 01:15:48.794 --> 01:15:50.911 Poe, where did you get all of this? 01:15:51.005 --> 01:15:54.089 Hospitals have VIP kitchens where they keep all the good stuff. 01:15:54.300 --> 01:15:56.542 You know, for celebrities, politicians. 01:15:57.136 --> 01:15:59.423 But tonight, Birthday Boy, it's for you. 01:16:01.390 --> 01:16:02.506 Salud! 01:16:02.933 --> 01:16:04.390 Salud! 01:16:18.032 --> 01:16:19.489 We were, like, ten! 01:16:19.784 --> 01:16:22.572 Yes. And we literally put sheets over our head 01:16:22.661 --> 01:16:24.243 and ran into the dementia ward! 01:16:28.292 --> 01:16:29.828 It was just like that! 01:16:30.086 --> 01:16:32.166 - Woo! - It was pandemonium. 01:16:32.338 --> 01:16:35.422 - It was crazy. - It was the best Halloween ever! 01:16:36.550 --> 01:16:38.041 We got in so much trouble. 01:16:38.135 --> 01:16:41.754 And it wasn't even our idea. Remember? Abby... Abby came up with that. 01:16:51.941 --> 01:16:53.477 Abby was wild. 01:16:54.318 --> 01:16:56.480 - She was free. - Hmm. 01:16:56.570 --> 01:16:59.654 She always said she was gonna live big because Stella couldn't. 01:17:01.075 --> 01:17:02.075 She did. 01:17:02.159 --> 01:17:03.616 She lived big. 01:17:03.702 --> 01:17:05.489 Bigger than any of us. 01:17:06.622 --> 01:17:08.955 She would've loved a clandestine party like this one! 01:17:09.208 --> 01:17:10.289 She would've. 01:17:13.045 --> 01:17:14.911 - To Abby. - To Abby. 01:17:16.298 --> 01:17:17.334 To Abby. 01:17:22.304 --> 01:17:27.015 ♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪ 01:17:27.101 --> 01:17:28.433 Whoo! 01:17:30.146 --> 01:17:31.353 Make a wish! 01:17:36.652 --> 01:17:39.360 I can't blow the candles out or else you guys can't eat it. 01:17:45.327 --> 01:17:46.659 I made a wish for you. 01:17:46.745 --> 01:17:48.031 Thank you. 01:17:48.122 --> 01:17:49.954 One. Two. 01:17:50.040 --> 01:17:51.184 - All right. - Three. 01:17:52.626 --> 01:17:53.992 Yay! 01:17:54.086 --> 01:17:56.419 - Happy Birthday, Will! - Yes! 01:17:58.507 --> 01:17:59.507 Barb? 01:17:59.800 --> 01:18:00.836 Hey! 01:18:02.386 --> 01:18:04.218 We thought you were off tonight. 01:18:04.305 --> 01:18:05.921 You want us to fix you a plate? 01:18:07.349 --> 01:18:08.760 That's it. That's it. 01:18:08.851 --> 01:18:11.594 You're all confined to your rooms while we get respiratory cultures. 01:18:11.687 --> 01:18:12.768 And you. 01:18:13.147 --> 01:18:14.729 You'll be transferred in the morning. 01:18:14.815 --> 01:18:16.727 Barb! Barb, it wasn't his fault. 01:18:16.817 --> 01:18:19.685 Well, you might be willing to gamble with your lives, but I'm not! 01:18:19.778 --> 01:18:21.314 Just like when we were kids. 01:18:21.405 --> 01:18:23.397 But you're not kids anymore, Poe. 01:18:23.490 --> 01:18:25.231 But we were safe like you taught us to be. 01:18:25.326 --> 01:18:26.487 Oh... 01:18:26.869 --> 01:18:28.952 I'm sorry, but it was fun! 01:18:44.595 --> 01:18:46.632 All right, I'll let you sleep, okay? 01:18:46.722 --> 01:18:47.883 Good night. 01:18:48.474 --> 01:18:49.635 Good night. 01:18:59.735 --> 01:19:01.146 A little pick-me-up? 01:19:01.237 --> 01:19:02.444 Thank you. 01:19:03.197 --> 01:19:05.189 It's just safer if he goes. 01:19:06.283 --> 01:19:07.569 You're probably right. 01:19:07.660 --> 01:19:09.322 She's gonna hate me. 01:19:09.578 --> 01:19:11.490 Mm-hmm. 01:19:13.832 --> 01:19:15.073 What's up, Poe? 01:19:16.835 --> 01:19:20.249 He probably sat on the call button again. I got it. 01:19:23.968 --> 01:19:26.005 Knock, knock. Poe? 01:19:30.849 --> 01:19:32.511 Code Blue! 01:19:35.187 --> 01:19:37.144 Attention, all medical personnel. 01:19:37.231 --> 01:19:38.688 - Poe! Poe! - Code Blue. Room 310. 01:19:38.774 --> 01:19:40.231 - Poe! - Stay with me. 01:19:40.317 --> 01:19:41.524 No pulse. 01:19:41.610 --> 01:19:42.851 Oh, God! Okay. 01:19:42.945 --> 01:19:45.358 - Stay with me, baby. - He's not breathing. 01:19:45.739 --> 01:19:48.823 - Come on, you can do it. Come on. - Bag him. Start chest compressions! 01:19:49.952 --> 01:19:51.513 - Come on! - Come on, Poe. 01:19:51.537 --> 01:19:53.870 - Come on, baby! Come on, baby. - Give him an Epi! 01:19:53.956 --> 01:19:56.573 It's a massive tension pneumothorax. His lung's collapsing. 01:19:59.503 --> 01:20:01.620 - Put the pads on him! - Come on, buddy. 01:20:01.714 --> 01:20:04.172 - What's happening? - Come on, sweetie! 01:20:04.258 --> 01:20:06.258 - Come on, buddy! - Barb, what's happening? 01:20:06.552 --> 01:20:08.714 Somebody get her out of here! Close that door! 01:20:08.804 --> 01:20:11.171 - Barb, what's happening? - Goddamn it! Breathe! 01:20:18.063 --> 01:20:19.349 Dr. Hamid? 01:20:19.440 --> 01:20:20.601 Not now, Stella. 01:20:20.691 --> 01:20:22.523 Dr. Hamid? 01:20:25.821 --> 01:20:27.062 I'm sorry. 01:20:28.657 --> 01:20:29.943 I'm so sorry. 01:20:30.034 --> 01:20:31.195 No! 01:20:33.120 --> 01:20:34.361 No! 01:20:35.122 --> 01:20:37.114 I'm so sorry. 01:20:50.012 --> 01:20:51.012 No! 01:20:56.518 --> 01:20:57.759 Oh, my God. 01:21:00.189 --> 01:21:02.272 Oh, my God. He's gone. 01:21:03.650 --> 01:21:07.314 Michael's never gonna see him again. His parents are never gonna see him again. 01:21:09.406 --> 01:21:11.773 I'm never gonna see him again. 01:21:16.872 --> 01:21:18.488 I never hugged him. 01:21:20.042 --> 01:21:21.283 I never hugged him. 01:21:21.377 --> 01:21:24.620 He's my best friend and I never fucking hugged him. 01:21:27.341 --> 01:21:28.798 Oh, God! 01:21:32.346 --> 01:21:33.837 I'm losing everyone. 01:21:34.348 --> 01:21:36.010 Hey, you're not losing me. 01:21:37.226 --> 01:21:38.342 What are you doing? 01:21:39.978 --> 01:21:42.186 - Get out! Get out! - I'm sorry. 01:21:42.940 --> 01:21:44.306 Just get out! 01:24:47.541 --> 01:24:48.952 I wanna go see the lights. 01:24:49.960 --> 01:24:52.122 It's gotta be, like, two miles away. 01:24:54.047 --> 01:24:56.084 - Hey, come on, let's go inside. - I'm going. 01:24:57.301 --> 01:24:58.587 Come with me. 01:24:59.428 --> 01:25:01.636 Stella, now's not the time to be rebellious. 01:25:01.722 --> 01:25:03.008 Is this about Poe? 01:25:03.098 --> 01:25:04.134 It is about Poe. 01:25:04.600 --> 01:25:06.683 It's about Abby, it's about you and me 01:25:06.768 --> 01:25:09.181 and all the things that we'll never get to do together. 01:25:09.896 --> 01:25:13.105 This whole time, I've been living for my treatments 01:25:13.191 --> 01:25:15.649 instead of doing my treatments so that I can live. 01:25:17.988 --> 01:25:19.229 I wanna live. 01:25:23.493 --> 01:25:25.155 It's just life, Will. 01:25:25.245 --> 01:25:26.861 It'll be over before we know it. 01:25:32.794 --> 01:25:33.875 All right. 01:25:36.131 --> 01:25:37.793 Can we catch a cab at least? 01:25:39.635 --> 01:25:41.467 I wanna walk and enjoy the night. 01:25:45.474 --> 01:25:47.010 Glove. We're good. 01:26:03.408 --> 01:26:05.445 How are you always getting me to exercise? 01:26:21.968 --> 01:26:23.925 It sure looks better from up here. 01:26:51.957 --> 01:26:52.957 What's that? 01:26:57.129 --> 01:26:58.995 Yeah, you're gonna have to explain that one. 01:27:02.634 --> 01:27:05.468 Abby got it for me the first time I came to the hospital. 01:27:05.846 --> 01:27:07.758 I've had it with me every time since. 01:27:10.434 --> 01:27:11.550 That's a relief, honestly, 01:27:11.643 --> 01:27:15.057 'cause I didn't have the heart to tell you that a third boob might be a deal breaker. 01:27:46.762 --> 01:27:48.048 Hey, Stella. 01:27:49.347 --> 01:27:50.347 Hmm? 01:27:50.974 --> 01:27:52.761 It's cold. 01:28:02.694 --> 01:28:03.730 Come on. 01:28:04.279 --> 01:28:05.565 Let's go see your lights. 01:28:18.126 --> 01:28:19.458 Let's take a breather. 01:28:30.472 --> 01:28:32.259 - Stella? Hey, don't do that. - Ooh! 01:28:32.724 --> 01:28:33.840 Stella... 01:28:33.934 --> 01:28:35.300 It's frozen solid. 01:28:46.404 --> 01:28:47.404 Hey, ladies. 01:28:47.489 --> 01:28:49.697 I just got a call from St. Luke's in Kansas City. 01:28:49.783 --> 01:28:51.024 Car accident with fatalities. 01:28:51.117 --> 01:28:54.326 One female, AB neg, 5'2", thoracic cage size... 01:28:54.412 --> 01:28:57.450 - Stella's getting lungs. - ETA three hours. Get her prepped. 01:29:02.379 --> 01:29:03.540 Oh, my God. 01:29:08.176 --> 01:29:10.133 No, no, no, no, no. 01:29:10.220 --> 01:29:12.462 No, no, no, no, no. No! 01:29:23.441 --> 01:29:24.441 Whew! 01:29:48.717 --> 01:29:49.798 Hey. 01:29:52.053 --> 01:29:53.260 Everything all right? 01:30:04.232 --> 01:30:05.232 Yeah. 01:30:09.404 --> 01:30:10.861 Yeah, I'm good. 01:30:14.534 --> 01:30:16.196 Oh! 01:30:22.792 --> 01:30:23.999 I love you, Stella. 01:30:46.691 --> 01:30:47.772 I love you, too. 01:31:23.561 --> 01:31:24.802 We can't. 01:31:30.276 --> 01:31:31.392 I know. 01:31:33.321 --> 01:31:34.357 Stella. 01:31:51.214 --> 01:31:52.214 Oh... 01:31:52.465 --> 01:31:56.084 - Shit! - Come on, come on. Come on. 01:31:56.177 --> 01:31:57.384 Oh my gosh! 01:31:57.470 --> 01:31:59.336 Come on. 01:31:59.848 --> 01:32:02.181 Barb. Barb? Barb. 01:32:02.267 --> 01:32:04.680 She's not answering and now it's going straight to voicemail. 01:32:04.769 --> 01:32:06.689 Stella would never run off. She wouldn't do that. 01:32:06.730 --> 01:32:08.596 - Have you been able to reach him? - No. 01:32:08.690 --> 01:32:09.690 This is Will's mother. 01:32:09.774 --> 01:32:11.752 - How long have they been gone? - At least an hour. 01:32:11.776 --> 01:32:13.656 If your son causes Stella to lose these lungs... 01:32:13.737 --> 01:32:17.401 - My son is just as sick as your daughter. - Stella would never do anything like this. 01:32:17.490 --> 01:32:19.527 Stella did this, Erin. Not Will. 01:32:19.617 --> 01:32:21.324 He doesn't know anything about the lungs. 01:32:21.995 --> 01:32:23.236 Lungs? 01:32:23.329 --> 01:32:24.740 - Is there a transplant? - Yes. 01:32:24.831 --> 01:32:26.447 Yeah, for Stella. They're on the way. 01:32:27.125 --> 01:32:30.118 Well, tell me at least you're a cat person. Do you like cats? 01:32:30.211 --> 01:32:31.543 I owned a ferret. 01:32:31.629 --> 01:32:33.416 I was a ferret kid. 01:32:33.506 --> 01:32:35.293 Oh, no. You would be a ferret kid. 01:32:35.550 --> 01:32:37.382 Hold on. 01:32:37.469 --> 01:32:39.051 - Don't answer it. - Come on. 01:32:39.137 --> 01:32:41.073 - Really, what do they need right now? - It's my mom. 01:32:41.097 --> 01:32:43.589 - Yeah, but... - Let me just tell her that I'm okay. 01:32:48.605 --> 01:32:50.141 Stella, they have new lungs for you. 01:32:52.233 --> 01:32:55.101 Hey, they have new lungs for you. Let's go to the hospital. Come on! 01:32:55.195 --> 01:32:56.686 I haven't seen the lights yet. 01:32:57.864 --> 01:32:58.945 The lights? 01:32:59.574 --> 01:33:01.907 Do you know about this? What are we doing out here? 01:33:01.993 --> 01:33:04.055 - Let's go to the hospital. Come on. - Five years, Will. 01:33:04.079 --> 01:33:05.347 - Five years? - That's the shelf life. 01:33:05.371 --> 01:33:06.766 Five years is a lifetime for people like us. 01:33:06.790 --> 01:33:10.158 - It's not! What happens when they fail... - Can we go the hospital, please? 01:33:10.251 --> 01:33:11.854 - Come on, let's go. - Will? Will? 01:33:11.878 --> 01:33:13.039 Stella! 01:33:13.254 --> 01:33:14.415 Stella! 01:33:25.975 --> 01:33:27.216 Stella. 01:33:27.310 --> 01:33:28.426 Come on. 01:33:28.728 --> 01:33:30.640 Please? It's cold. 01:33:34.734 --> 01:33:35.815 Stella! 01:33:43.368 --> 01:33:44.575 Stella! 01:34:01.010 --> 01:34:02.010 Stella. 01:34:40.466 --> 01:34:41.466 Help! 01:34:54.022 --> 01:34:55.103 Come on, Stella. 01:35:14.500 --> 01:35:15.741 Come on! 01:35:16.169 --> 01:35:17.376 Come on! 01:35:22.133 --> 01:35:23.133 Come on, Stella. 01:36:56.936 --> 01:36:57.976 What have we got? 01:36:58.062 --> 01:37:00.224 A 17-year-old female with cystic fibrosis. 01:37:00.315 --> 01:37:02.056 We already have lungs for her. 01:37:02.150 --> 01:37:04.642 - Can someone get the other mask on? - Oh, my God. Honey. 01:37:04.736 --> 01:37:07.194 It's okay. 01:37:07.280 --> 01:37:09.442 My son. My son was out there, too. 01:37:09.532 --> 01:37:11.023 I'm sorry. Step back, please. 01:37:11.117 --> 01:37:12.233 You're okay. 01:37:12.327 --> 01:37:13.967 - Where's Will? - It's okay, honey. 01:37:14.037 --> 01:37:15.118 Where's Will? 01:37:15.204 --> 01:37:16.204 Honey. 01:37:16.289 --> 01:37:17.746 - Coming through! - Will! 01:37:18.750 --> 01:37:20.332 - Is he okay? - He's okay. 01:37:20.418 --> 01:37:21.704 Will, I'm here. 01:37:21.794 --> 01:37:24.457 Get the other mask on her as soon as possible, please. 01:37:24.547 --> 01:37:26.459 O2 is at 45. Possible hypothermia. 01:37:26.591 --> 01:37:29.611 - We're gonna need more blankets over here. - It's okay. Just breathe. 01:37:29.635 --> 01:37:32.298 - Stella? - It's okay, I've got you, honey. 01:37:32.388 --> 01:37:34.268 - Stella? - It's okay, just breathe. 01:37:34.349 --> 01:37:36.261 You need to calm down. We have your new lungs... 01:37:36.351 --> 01:37:38.231 - No! I don't want them. - Yes, Stella. 01:37:38.311 --> 01:37:39.847 I don't... I don't want them. 01:37:39.937 --> 01:37:43.137 Stella, we've been waiting for these lungs for years. What are you talking about? 01:37:43.191 --> 01:37:45.274 If you don't use the lungs, they're wasted, sweetie. 01:37:45.360 --> 01:37:47.773 I love him. The new lungs won't mean anything without him. 01:37:47.862 --> 01:37:50.195 - Get that mask back on him. - Keep that on, Will. 01:37:50.281 --> 01:37:51.592 - Stop! Stop! - Hold still. 01:37:51.616 --> 01:37:53.357 Please! Stop. 01:37:53.993 --> 01:37:55.905 Will! 01:37:56.204 --> 01:37:57.445 Please. 01:37:59.540 --> 01:38:00.747 Take the lungs. 01:38:02.418 --> 01:38:03.579 For me. 01:38:06.839 --> 01:38:08.525 - Okay. - Come on, put the mask on. 01:38:08.549 --> 01:38:11.132 - I'm ready. Okay. - Okay. All right, let's go. 01:38:11.219 --> 01:38:14.132 Okay, okay. I'll be right here, honey. 01:38:14.222 --> 01:38:15.383 Let's go. 01:38:16.140 --> 01:38:18.348 - Okay, I love you so much. - Okay. 01:38:19.185 --> 01:38:20.266 I love you, Dad. 01:38:21.729 --> 01:38:23.641 - Okay, here we go. - I love you. 01:38:23.731 --> 01:38:25.017 Dr. Hamid. 01:38:25.608 --> 01:38:27.190 I gave her mouth-to-mouth. 01:38:29.070 --> 01:38:30.936 I'm sorry. I didn't have any other choice. 01:38:31.030 --> 01:38:32.146 You saved her life, Will. 01:38:32.240 --> 01:38:34.402 If she has B. cepacia, we'll deal with it, okay? 01:40:30.733 --> 01:40:32.520 Bacterial cultures came back. 01:40:33.945 --> 01:40:36.733 I don't know how, but she's clean. 01:40:37.532 --> 01:40:38.818 She didn't get it. 01:40:42.537 --> 01:40:44.199 But that doesn't mean she won't. 01:40:48.751 --> 01:40:49.992 What about Will? 01:40:51.671 --> 01:40:53.128 Is the treatment working? 01:40:58.135 --> 01:40:59.296 No. 01:41:01.681 --> 01:41:03.092 No, it's not. 01:41:11.649 --> 01:41:12.765 I'm sorry. 01:41:15.111 --> 01:41:16.397 - For all of this. - No. 01:41:16.487 --> 01:41:18.524 No, no, no, no, sweetie. 01:41:20.241 --> 01:41:21.698 It's not your fault. 01:42:25.348 --> 01:42:26.964 Mom. Hey. 01:42:27.683 --> 01:42:28.799 Hey. 01:42:28.893 --> 01:42:30.759 What? What is it? What is it, honey? 01:42:31.937 --> 01:42:33.644 Could you help me with something? 01:42:38.194 --> 01:42:39.480 Are you guys in? 01:42:39.570 --> 01:42:41.152 - Absolutely. - Mm-hmm. 01:42:42.114 --> 01:42:43.275 Barb? 01:42:45.159 --> 01:42:46.650 Hell, yeah, I'm in. 01:42:47.912 --> 01:42:49.995 She's sedated. We have a few more hours. 01:42:50.623 --> 01:42:51.909 We have time. 01:42:52.249 --> 01:42:54.286 It's done. They said yes. 01:42:56.212 --> 01:42:57.328 Okay. 01:42:57.755 --> 01:42:59.337 - Let's do this. - Let's do it. 01:43:10.643 --> 01:43:14.353 I've done all I'm doing with this, Will. I'm done. 01:43:17.692 --> 01:43:19.274 Thank you. 01:43:20.486 --> 01:43:21.897 She's waking up. 01:43:26.575 --> 01:43:27.986 Hey, honey. 01:43:33.082 --> 01:43:35.540 - Hey, sweetie, you did great! - Hi! You really did. 01:43:35.626 --> 01:43:36.912 - You did great. - You did! 01:43:40.923 --> 01:43:43.381 - You did wonderful, baby. - Yeah. 01:43:43.467 --> 01:43:44.674 You did good. 01:43:45.886 --> 01:43:47.127 It's okay. 01:43:54.395 --> 01:43:56.307 We have something for you. 01:44:01.902 --> 01:44:04.144 My beautiful, bossy Stella. 01:44:05.197 --> 01:44:07.689 I guess it's true, what that book of yours says. 01:44:08.659 --> 01:44:10.651 That the soul knows no time. 01:44:12.621 --> 01:44:14.578 My drug trial's not working. 01:44:16.083 --> 01:44:18.826 I want you to know that this past month 01:44:18.919 --> 01:44:20.535 will last forever for me. 01:44:21.547 --> 01:44:24.335 My only regret is that you didn't get to see your lights. 01:45:19.647 --> 01:45:21.388 I finally got you speechless. 01:45:26.195 --> 01:45:27.464 You know, people are always saying 01:45:27.488 --> 01:45:29.946 if you love something, you have to learn to let it go. 01:45:31.617 --> 01:45:33.358 I thought that was such bullshit. 01:45:35.788 --> 01:45:37.825 Till I watched you almost die. 01:45:38.874 --> 01:45:40.706 In that moment, Stella, 01:45:43.546 --> 01:45:45.128 nothing mattered to me. 01:45:46.924 --> 01:45:48.256 Except you. 01:45:52.888 --> 01:45:54.254 I'm sorry. 01:45:58.477 --> 01:45:59.809 I don't wanna go. 01:46:02.898 --> 01:46:04.890 All I want is to be with you. 01:46:09.071 --> 01:46:10.312 I can't. 01:46:12.616 --> 01:46:14.152 I need you to be safe... 01:46:15.536 --> 01:46:16.868 from me. 01:46:20.249 --> 01:46:21.865 I don't know what comes next, 01:46:22.877 --> 01:46:25.620 but I don't regret any of this. 01:46:30.593 --> 01:46:32.129 Could you close your eyes? 01:46:33.512 --> 01:46:36.676 I just don't know if I can walk away if you're still looking at me. 01:46:44.523 --> 01:46:45.684 Please. 01:47:03.083 --> 01:47:04.449 I love you... 01:47:05.502 --> 01:47:06.868 so much. 01:47:35.950 --> 01:47:37.691 He left this for you. 01:49:09.209 --> 01:49:10.689 Human touch. 01:49:11.962 --> 01:49:13.999 Our first form of communication. 01:49:14.089 --> 01:49:17.708 - Say, "Hi, Auntie Stella." - Safety, security, comfort, 01:49:18.510 --> 01:49:21.173 all in the gentle caress of a finger. 01:49:22.306 --> 01:49:24.889 Or at the brush of lips on a soft cheek. 01:49:24.975 --> 01:49:26.932 Hey, Stella. You can't record that. No. 01:49:27.352 --> 01:49:29.184 It connects us when we're happy... 01:49:31.231 --> 01:49:32.938 Abby, no. 01:49:33.025 --> 01:49:34.665 ...bolsters us in times of fear... 01:49:35.986 --> 01:49:37.727 - Can you turn that off? - Stella! 01:49:38.447 --> 01:49:40.564 ...excites us in times of passion... 01:49:41.408 --> 01:49:44.321 Ah. No. Stella, no. Stop! 01:49:45.079 --> 01:49:46.320 ...and love. 01:49:49.666 --> 01:49:53.376 We need that touch from the one we love almost as much as we need air to breathe. 01:49:55.714 --> 01:49:58.422 But I never understood the importance of touch, 01:50:00.052 --> 01:50:01.384 his touch... 01:50:03.764 --> 01:50:05.130 until I couldn't have it. 01:50:09.770 --> 01:50:11.807 So, if you're watching this, 01:50:13.023 --> 01:50:14.514 and you're able, 01:50:17.569 --> 01:50:18.901 touch him. 01:50:19.780 --> 01:50:20.941 Touch her. 01:50:23.450 --> 01:50:25.487 Life's too short to waste a second.